Jealousy

I hate it when people make me jealous. I have this one friend, and I just know she does it intentionally. She'll talk about how she hates her NEW blackberry, or how she can't spend all of her money because she ONLY has over $100 for the concert she's going to in Austin.

Honestly? Fuck you. I'm over here wondering if I can afford a new CD, and you're complaining to me that you are afraid to meet your NEW roomates in your NEW apartment in the middle of MY favorite part of houston? Really? How about when you send me links to phones I could only dream of getting, because I can't even afford a camera that's $200, and the phone is like $400 ?

Now, I'm not saying I don't appreciate what I have, because I definitely do. I'm not saying I'm going around telling people I'm poor, because I'm not. I'm one of the luckier families in this country right now; in this world for christ's sake. I don't have a lot of money though, compared to everyone I know who's been complaining about money.

I mean, I wish my parents would drop $900 for a graduation present, but I know they won't. Not because they don't want to, just because they simply can't. (You don't brag about it though, so I'm not mad at you for it, haha. I'm just making a point.) I wish I could get a new phone that costs more than a month or two's payment of rent, but last time I checked a roof over my head was more important than a new communication device. I wish I could go shopping with $100 every time I went shopping, or buy whatever I wanted whenever I wanted online, but I was taught that food and necessities were much more important than material things. I wish I could have gotten that beautiful digital nikon for christmas, but the economy dropped and before I knew it I was just happy I could buy my film prints from walgreens.

So don't show me pictures of your new phone. Don't complain about money with a brand new camera. Don't talk about how you don't have any money right now yet you buy things constantly and your parents are abroad. Don't tell me ALL about your amazing road trip that you spent an insane amount of money on.

Don't rub in my face what I can't have. That just makes you a shitty friend, and an asshole.




Lime Tree just came on. I'm feeling a little better. Or...I'm getting my mind off of this subject and submersing it into another one. Thanks Conor.