Ow, I just scratched my eyelid.

I have nothing to blog about, really. I just saw I hadn't blogged since Tuesday, and figured I'd do something with my time.

My sleeping's been really off lately. I'm not sure why, but I'm going into summer mode, now. I was hoping I wouldn't, though. It is nice waking up and realizing I only have a couple of hours to entertain myself before my mom comes back, though. It makes life not as...boring.

It's really hot lately. Obviously it's summer, but I guess it's been hotter than normal ? Last time I checked, if it was summer in Houston, we're almost guaranteed 100+ degrees, but I guess the forcasters say different. Apparently it's been like 10 degrees higher than normal? I don't know. I know it's hot, and that's about it. I've only been outside a handful of times, hahaha.

My dad got back safely from Atlanta. He failed in his mission to find Manchester Orchestra, though. I'm pretty ashamed in him. :'(

The Graduate's filling my musical needs right now. I've been fairly picky, lately. Maybe just because I know there's an amazing Act III out and I STILL DON'T HAVE IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ugh. I need it. Now.

Kay, well I'm going now. I'm drinking this drink that's suppose to like...energize you, but I'm feeling overly exhausted right now, hahaha. This drink fails.

Baiiiii :)

So, it's about five hours later

aaaaand I have a new reply. This guy doesn't cease to amazing me. I don't even care (note to self: yes I do) that I was woken up by my LOUD phone that was notifying me I had a new email. I don't even care (note to self: YES. I DO.) that I'm not able to get to sleep anymore, because of it.

I'm thuroughly surprised he replied, obv. I told you in the last blog I would be. Haha idk, idk. I'm so tired. I don't know what I'm saying anymore. I can't sleep thoughhhh. Ahhhhh. Delirious bloggingggg. I can't typeeee. Or spelllll.

Please forgive my spelling, by the way. I'm too out of it to really take time on it, lol.

Anyways, I'm going to hop back in bed. Or go bother my dogs who keep whining. Either way, baaaai.

So, I got my reply

and I couldn't be happier with it. (check blog a couple lower about the email I sent to Asa :))

Basically all I did was ask why TJV broke up, blahblahblah.

Basically all he told me was the total history of TJV, hahaha. No, but seriously, he's so nice. He told me everything about why they broke up, and didn't hide the fact that some of it was his fault. I find it really amazing that he's laying low about the whole thing, and letting certain people blame everything on him. I felt really bad for even thinking for a minute that it was all his fault. >.< I should have know better.

Anyways, he seemed pretty enlightened that someone was actually asking for his POV. I guess he doesn't get that a lot ? In which case, people are stupid for not wanting to know. It's not like they're going to be scolded if they ask, and it sure did make me feel better about the whole thing. Kind of... haha It was actually kind of depressing.

Uhm, I'm really happy for him that he got sober. I'm really happy for the other dudes who're doing okay, I guess. I'm really happy that he was so cool about it. Most of all, I'm really happy he just replied, hahahaha. I honestly thought he wouldn't.

Anyways, I emailed him back asking a couple more questions. Nothing that requires a super long answer or anything, just simple questions. I have a theory though, that once a musician has replied to a message, email, comment, ect, once, they won't do it again. I'm pretty sure it's against the rules of being a musician. Hahaha. In simple words, I don't expect another reply.

So yeah, that's my post. I'm happy. :) Haha BAI.

I don't get it

I just really don't. How is she so much better than me? Because she likes SOME of your music? Because she'll lie and say she likes your silly little comics? Because she doesn't have an opinion other than the things every other high school emo girl does?

At least I have a fucking personality. At least I was comfortable enough with you to tell you what I really thought. At least I was your friend, even if we didn't like EXACTLY the same things.

I'm so stupid. I don't know why I even tried.





Guys are such dicks.

When the bombs go off you'll know right where you are

Uhm, I don't have much to say.

Laura and I are sparing each other for going crazy during the summer. We're kind of going crazy...together, though. Not exactly not going crazy. Hahahaha.

She just showed me some amazing hat hair. Hahahaha stupid fedora. I wore mine yesterday so we could match. :)

I really don't know what to say. Like...I really, really don't know.

I guess I'll just stop now.




Oh, haha I emailed Asa asking for his POV about the TJV break up. We'll see if he replies. Probably not, but we'll see. I've been really curious lately. Especially after studying Andy while I asked him questions about them. :X

Anyways, I'm going to go now. Baaai.

Take me to the river, and let me see again

Oh my God, let me see again.



So, tonight was good. Mom didn't have a drop of alcohol, and I'm almost surprised. I'm sure this was her first night in a long night, not to. I'm glad she didn't.

Grandma had both of us on egg shells, though. She kept mentioning alcohol, and I could feel the tension that we both felt when she did. I wish she wouldn't bring it up.

I'm anxious for my dad to come back. I kind of want to get my pictures developed, even though I'm completely terrified as to how they'll come out. It's my first time using this camera, and I hope I did it well.

I'm still stuck on Manchester Orchestra. They're so amazing. I don't even know how to explain how amazing they are. I was watching some videos of them earlier, live, and it made me wish I wasn't so stupid. They came here like maybe three weeks ago, and I missed it because I didn't like them. :'( At least I saw them with Say Anything. Too bad I remember NOTHING about their set. T___T.

Speaking of sets, I just wanted to take time to tell everyone how AMAZING The Dear Hunter's set was. Scratch that, I wanted to remind everyone how AMAZING their performance of The Oracles of Delphi was. Holy mother of God. I was like...no. Haha, no. I can't even explain how amazing it was! I couldn't exactly see how many people, or who exactly, got on stage, but they did an amazing job. And Andy... Maybe it's just because I worship him and everything he does, but he was fucking amazing. Just... wow.

HIS VOICE IS SO DKLFHLSDHF. I wish he'd go solo. I wish he'd sing himself on ONE SONG. That's all I need. I would be happy forever. Actually, I'd probably go crazy. I'd probably go mentally insane from being so obsessed. I'm completely kidding, though.

I'm going to go pass out now. I'm exhausted, even though I've only been up for 10 hours. Lazy days are the best. They give me time to recooperate from eventful and nerve wracking nights. :)

The Dear Hunter

Jeeesuuuus christ. I had the best night I have in a long time. I need to go to more shows like that. I loved every single band, which I haven't really done in a looong time haha.

Let the records show that Andy Wildrick is the nicest man alive. If I were still in that whole teeny phase, I would say I was going to marry him. (let's pretend that blog about nic doesn't exsist when I say that statement ;))

I think next time I go see mewithoutYou I should go with a bunch of stoned kids so I'm not seen as weird, I'm just seen as high. (I guess it'll just be me and them who know I'm not) I <3 my hippie dancing, though. Hahahaha




Anyways, I'm going to bed. I'm glad tonight was so successful. I was really worried it wouldn't be. :)